Monday, 28 June 2010

cake or death?

Wednesday, 16 June 2010

Saturday, 12 June 2010

13 Oh Father by TPBSecretLeaks

Thursday, 10 June 2010

sometimes i miss oblivion
the comforting numbness
the gaping chasm
25 years ripened
perfect cloak of pain
a thousand shallow cuts


the shield i crafted
traps out as much
traps in

Thursday, 3 June 2010

what makes you happy?

so my friend Louise is having a giveaway on her blog, and to enter you have to write about things that make you happy. i feel quite blessed, a lot of things make me happy. here are a few

steve makes me deliriously happy. i used to think i was invisible before i met him, no one ever saw me and i felt so alone and unimportant. and steve saw me when no one else did and i came to life. relationships aren't easy...nor are they supposed to be, but things with steve are natural. it's like he's my best friend, polar opposite and dream guy all rolled into one. i always feel special, cherished and beautiful because steve is always telling me how much he loves me. which is so important to me, i feel a constant need to be reassured of my affections after a tumultuous upbringing...and steve's parents aren't affectionate (and he is not affectionate really outside the home) but he really relaxes and is so caring and attentive at home. and he makes me laugh and he makes my heart full.



another thing that makes me happy is lipqstick queen medieval. i spent many years being teased by friends and family for having large lips and never wear lipstick or any tint on my lips for fear of being teased again...and i picked up medieval on the suggestion of some friends and it's lovely. it's mellow, it lets me ease out of my comfort zone and works like chapstick all at the same time. i bring it with me everywhere i go and i have a backup at home.






nail polish! nail polish makes me incredibly happy. i feel like my love of nail polish has helped establish bits of my identity. i really do feel that it connects me to a whole group of people and it's just such a fun habit. i love writing in my blog and knowing that people respect my opinion since i don't consider myself to be anything other than a big fan.







last, but not least...shoes! in some ways my shoe addiction is fun, finding the right shoe, seeking out a bargain, being an original with my purchases...but on the other hand it's atrocious as i can't buy cheap knockoffs from high street designers because i can see the original design they are copied from. it makes buying shoes frustrating and expensive but the payoff can be huge. i love finding a rare gem that everyone else thinks is ugly and i see its true beauty!


Monday, 24 May 2010

Friday, 21 May 2010

"God loved the birds and invented trees


Man loved the birds and invented cages"

--Jacques Deval