monday morning 11:49

hey i'm good at this monday morning posts. go me.

is money the root of all evil? yes i think so. and maybe more on that later.


anyone who knows me on an off day is familiar with my constant muttering of 'im gonna die i'm gonna die i'm gonna die' over and over. it's kind of like a comforting mantra except really it's just me vocalising how crap i feel! couldn't sleep last night because i was freaking out about money (turns out for no reason! stupid card glitches making me freak out) so i was afraid i wouldn't be able to afford a train ticket to steve's parents house and then if i had to ask steve to buy it for me i would get a rightfully deserved lecture about my spending habits. which are usually good but of course i went shoe crazy. but turns out all is well so i freaked out and didn't sleep for nothing. so of course i was exhausted this morning and although i didn't go back to sleep after my alarm went off i certainly didn't do the responsible thing of getting my lazy tired ass outta bed. so i was late to work because steve pointed out the time at 8:45 and i rushed around like a crazy person. although i did allow myself to be even later to work because i picked up steve's xmas gift that never arrived on saturday...or the saturday prior. so now they can't send it back because i never picked it up and i don't have to stress about steve's xmas gift.

i am slightly sad because i made a big order for nail polish (my other weakness) and i have been looking forward to getting my nail polish for 3 weeks now but after 3 weeks of waiting (and the deilvery time was 6 business days) i've given up and demanded a refund. which sucks because i really wanted my nail polish! some of them were quite hard to find!!! although i'll be in a moral quandary if the polishes arrive after the refund. but i've abandoned hope on them.

wednesday is our office xmas party. the prupim xmas party was the last time i drank alcohol, and it's sort of full circle. i'm still not drinking and being thankful for it every second (although now my brain is attempting to get cocky and convince myself that it was all a ruse and i can just go back to my old bad habits a wiser individual and not fall into the same bad habits...RIGHT. yeah i think not) it is a bit weird to be in a huge party situation where people are getting drunk off their faces and you're the lone sober person watching everyone make a fool out of themselves. it's a really awkward time. but i guess it will be nice to go home early and have a fancy meal on the company's tab....debut my no barres and maybe have some fun. although i just have to remember not to be haughty at the hungover people on thursday since i was once them and lording my sobriety over people is stupid since i'd be right there with them if it didn't mean alchol poisoning and a long slow recovery again.

you know what's annoying? i was going to post a blog on friday about 3 things and even now i still can't remember the third thing. you know i read an article once about how women tend to skip the first stall in bathrooms because they assume it's the most frequently used and therefore is often the least used (and the cleanest!). although i guess if everyone else read that article my first stall theory has been shot to hell.


i'm really tired. my life hurts!